People...

I am so over most people.

Not everyone obviously.

But a great majority of people I see.

They ask stupid questions, say stupid things.

Yesterday our apartment manager and maintenance person were doing "inspections".

Their nice nice way of being nosey.

She looks at Damien and asks if we were going to have anymore babies.

I dunno if we are or not.

Then other people just blatantly say we don't need anymore.

That one of us needs a permanent fix so we won't have anymore.

I got news for you people.

If I want anoth child I will have another child.

It is mine and my husbands choice.

NOT YOURS!

We do our best to raise our children and if you dont like is kiss off.

That has pretty much what I have been telling anyone that asks these questions.

But on a slightly better note.

I cannot wait till next week!

We are going to Rogersville on the 4th.

The have amazing fireworks.

And we get to watch the Mercy Me and the Eli Young Band.

Bad side of this is my in-laws will be there.

But I still can't wait.

 I am so looking forward to seeing the kids faces when they see the fire works.

This will be Kairi's first actually year seeing them that she will remember.

Hopefully this year Aiden won't be a complete chicken.

One can hope at least.

Positivity

Yesterday was the first time in forever that instead of screaming and fighting we actually talked out our problems. And it was nice. And I have a more positive attitude. My husband is my husband and no matter what others plans are about that changing it isn't going to change. I know that women have devious minds when they are going threw breakups or separations. They don't care if a man is married or not they will flirt and try their best to get his attention. Especially if the woman was someone romantic in some way with the man. But after talking it out yesterday after a weekend of feeling sorry for myself and extremely unattractive. I am now thinking different. I have had 3 kids in 5 years and I look good. I lost all of the baby weight from all of them. I now weigh what I did when we got married. My boobs dont sag to bad. They are actually perky from where I am breast feeding. I could use toning but I'm not going to stress it. I look at myself and see the good things. How many women can say that after 3 kids? I stay mostly on top of the house work. I keep my kids happy and healthy. So I think I am doing very good :) Yes I just gave myself praise which I never do. Now to move on forward to a better future with my 3 wonderful babies and amazing husband.

Father's Day

Tomorrow is Father's Day. I am still amazed every day that my husband is such a great father.

He surprises me everyday at the love and devotion he gives our 3 beautiful children.

He makes me realize just how lucky we truly are.

Happy Father's Day!



Better week...

Compared to last week this week has been great. Little to moderate temper tantrums from the kids. Things have been going great between me and the hubs. I finally finished Damien's last round of Nystatin for his Thrush. I wish someone wold have told me about Thrush. I don't think it so much bugged Damien as it did me. Sore nips all the way. and another pesky side affect of Thrush, milk blisters. But the Nystatin kicks its ass! I can finally tell that he is also putting on weight. It's only taking him 3 months. Kairi is starting to potty train. And she's doing it like a champ. She is catching on so fast. In the 3 days that we've been training full time, she has only had 2 accidents. I thinking having a more positive out look on this week and hoping this week would be better than last has helped. Well thats all I have to say for now. I have 2 very sleepy children that need to be put to bed for a nap, and a 3 month old that needs to be nursed.

Friday...

The day I have wished for all week is finally here and I don't know if I'm excited anymore. I do know that I am tired as shit physically. And completely wore out mentally. It seems like I have cleaned, did laundry, washed dishes, or some type of freaking house work everyday this week. That's why I'm physically tired. As for the mental exhaustion, 2 older kids that constantly get in to everything when I'm trying to nurse Damien or Damien wanting to nurse constantly. Not that I should really complain about that cause it seems like the only time I really get to relax and unwind (might have something to do with the extra hormone release during nursing). Add fighting with the husband on top of that and feeling completely inadequate at anything I try to do this week. It has just been a rather shitty week. But I still have hope that this weekend will be better. I have hope that something might get me out of my funk. Cause if it doesn't I might go insane.

On a more positive note I can tell that Damien is finally putting on some weight. Which is a HUGE relief for me. That's all for now folks.